Caught in a whirlwind of examinations. It's finally the long-awaited weekends. Well, technically speaking, today is still a weekday, but the last of the weekdays! A-Math exam wasn't as horrific as I thought. Literature Paper: the unseen poem was terrible. Other than that, it just drained off about 1/3 of my new pen ink. Chinese Oral was terrible. I actually stammered, for the first time in my life. Today's Chinese Paper 1 was okay, almost everyone wrote questions 2 and 5.
After the exam today, I went to chiong my SS articles together with Emily outside the AVT. Then CO Handover Ceremony was at 5pm. I was left with a personal reflection and two relevance to NE. I rushed down to the canteen where there was a buffet dinner and completed my SS articles there. Man, the adrenaline coursing through my blood vessels. After running up to submit my articles in Miss Neo's locker, I dashed back down and joined Xin Yi, Lynn and Cindy for dinner.
After dinner, there was quite a long wait for the Ceremony to start. I got pretty bored and started doing my Biology worksheet with Xin Yi. Then the ceremony started after some time. It was held in the canteen and everyone gathered together. Our erm, emcees were Chiou Huey and Lechiner, who were really humourous. Then we had the Handover Ceremony where all the new and old section leaders and committee members exchange gifts.
It's sad. That's it, I've stepped down. It's the end of my journey in TMS CO. I've spent four years (well, almost) in CO, but it seemed like such a short time. I joined CO because I wanted to play the flute, but I got allocated to erhu instead. I remembered when I first joined in sec 1, Zheng lao shi wasn't even our conductor yet. He came about 2 or 3 months later. Then we practised and practised, even coming on saturdays for self-practices. We were also still using the CO Music Store at the third level, yeah, the one opposite the Band Music Store. Then during my first CO camp, Li Zhen quit Dance and joined CO and I got transferred from erhu to gaohu. Got to know the two gaohu seniors: Yiting and Caryn, who taught me gaohu too. Thank you. Then Yiting became the section leader and me, the assistant section leader.
Took part in my first SYF competition in sec 2, playing Shi Cheng Ying Chun and Feng Nian Ji. The gaohu solo was freaky, but a really beautiful part. We got silver. Had our first public concert at the Singapore Conference Hall, Musical Epoch 2003.
In sec 3, I became the section leader and Xin Yi the assistant section leader. For the first time (since Jia Qing left), there were guys in the section (Wen Da, Pei Zhi, Chu Yuan and Jotham) and they stayed on.
Wen Da was transferred to gaohu. So did Lynn. The 3 gaohu-ians. Haha. We rock man! We're forever insane and laughing like mad. Doing stupid and funny things like bouncing off chairs, leaping off the stage together, drinking water together, and trying to make each other laugh while drinking in attempt to make the other spew out water, toasting each other, dumping scraps of paper/liquid paper/tissue paper in the hole behind our gaohus, disturbing each other endlessly, exchanging gaohus to play, then go horribly off-tune coz we're not used to each other's gaohu. Then what with Wen Da and his erm 'oil' theory. Haha.
We had a section BBQ at my house on Christmas Eve.
In sec 4, we had our second Musical Epoch at Dunman High Auditorium. Snapped loads of photos on that day. Then we trained really really really hard for SYF and we achieved a GOLD!!! Everyone was so overwhelmed that day.
Abruptly, my journey in CO came to an end. I'm gonna miss everyone so much. I'm gonna miss my gaohu so much. I'm gonna miss practices. I'm gonna miss making music as an orchestra.
To my beloved section mates...
Hui Yan and Wen Da, I'm leaving my beloved section in your hands. Do a good job and lead the section well! I know you guys can do it! Keep up the bondship in Xuan Yue.
And the rest, listen to your new SL and ASL okay? Don't make life difficult for them.
Eileen, being a librarian is not easy, especially when you get loads of scores dumped on you at the same time, but I know you can do it gal! Don't stress yourself up too much!
The four guys, work hard k? In both music and studies. Don't get overly obsessed with the drumset hor. I wanna see you guys getting a Gold with Honours in the next SYF. You all can do it! I have faith in you all! =)
Wen Da, must study for your tests hor. Don't wanna hear you failing again. Don't be too obsessed with the drumset. Don't tap your foot during practices and don't stick out your tongue when you make mistakes. Lead the section well! Jia you~!
Pei Zhi, you also another one. Must study for your tests too. Don't wanna hear you failing again either. Although you're not obsessed with the drumset la. Work hard! And your laughter hor... really... terrible. It's overly infectious. I've never met a person who laughs like you do. Can't stand it, it makes me laugh uncontrollably.
Chu Yuan, although you're playing the guzheng now, you're still a part of xuan yue! Cut down on those swear words ya? And remember, whatever your parents do, it's for your own good. And don't always attitude okay? Work hard!
Jotham, the very shy one. Although now you're not as shy as before. You also another drumset nut, although not as nuts as Wen Da. And keep track of your school books, don't always lose them. Study hard, play hard too!
Lynn, the cheerful, sometimes siao and laughing-like-mad gal. Work hard in your studies okay? It's okay to fail, learn from your mistakes! A failure is not one who fails, but one who stops trying. Don't ever give up!
Cheryl, the one with the crazy laughter. Lol. Work hard in your studies and in CO too!
Si Lei, the belly-button. You work hard too! And don't talk too much about erm... *cough*
Hong Kun and Jina, the two quiet girls. Or is there a noisy side as well? Anyway, work hard in studies and in CO! Do well for the next SYF and get a Gold with Honours!!
Wanting, although I don't know you very well, but you're a cute girl. Remember to work hard and strive for a Gold with Honours in the next SYF!
To all the sec 4s, I know it's sad we're leaving. But we'll come back again ya? Study hard for the O' levels! 6 distinctions people! All the best for the Common Tests, Prelims and the O' levels!!!
I love you guys! Xuan Yue DIAMONDS!!! Xuan Yue rocks forever! Once a xuanyue-ian, always a xuanyue-ian!
Thank you all for the wonderful gifts!
Have I missed anyone out? If I did, I'm sorry. Just remember to work hard! Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 9:04 PM |
Monday, April 25, 2005
The English Paper wasn't a very pleasant thing today. I was still writing my summary when a crisp and clear voice rang out across the examination hall. "You have 6 minutes left." Cold dread filled my heart and panic struck me as I furiously scribbled those last few lines. I knew I still had 2 blanks in my passage A and one in Passage B. My heartbeat went into overdrive and I tried to calm myself down. Fortunately I made it. Thank God.
After English Paper, it was 1630 hours. We still had Chemistry Practical. I trudged tiredly to the Chemistry Lab. Titration was fine today. Though washing the apparatus itself was a tiring and troublesome procedure. What with all the burette, pipette, conical flasks, beakers and so on.
Tomorrow we have a half day, due to the outstanding performance of the 4 aesthetics CCA in our school. Choir, Dance and CO achieved Gold and Band, Gold with Honours. Our dismissal time is at 1000 hours. I was euphoric. At first. Then I learnt that we have Chinese Oral Examinations which will commence at 1030 hours. Man, I sound so formal. Hahaha! Anyway, that pretty much dimmed my enthusiasm. But then again, maybe it's a good thing that I don't have to stay back until late in the afternoon for Oral. Afterall, I have tuition and a Literature exam to study for.
Handover Ceremony is this friday. I don't want friday to come.
//Enough is enough. I'm not gonna lose my sanity over this. I'm not gonna think about it anymore. I'm not gonna allow myself to.//
Yeap, a new layout. The previous one went nutsy. Don't ask me why. I don't know. It just did. I like the elegance of this layout, but it's a tad bit too light for the likes of me. I might change it to a black one soon. Depends if I have the mood and time. Tomorrow is my first paper: English paper II.
I just bought 6 new novels. I'm happy. But I couldn't help it and succumb to temptation today. I read two of Julie Garwood's books and I was held captivated throughout the entire day.
It feels weird when there isn't any CO practices. I feel so empty. Hao kong xu. I miss CO. I miss my section. I miss creating music as an orchestra. I don't want to step down. I don't wanna leave them. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:48 PM |
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Chinese Orchestra number 15, Temasek Secondary School... GOLD!!!
All hell broke loose as almost everyone in TMS CO jumped up, screamed and hugged each other at Singapore Conference Hall (SCH). This is one moment I'll never forget, I can still hear the emcee's voice in my mind, as I sat at the audience's seat, clutching Li Zhen's hand tightly in mine, as we waited for the results.
I can still remember everything so clearly, from the moment I woke up this morning. I was so excited, I woke up of my own accord without the alarm clock. I attended school this morning, even though we were excused due to the practice which ended late last night. I was feeling so hyper, excited, nervous, I just couldn't sit still during A-Math class. I was like fidgeting and being all hyper, though I really tried hard to force myself to concentrate on Probability. And I did la, but in my mind was Xing Kong and Chang Cheng even as I was solving questions on my foolscap paper. I got back my E-Math test on Geometrical Transformations today, 23/25. Not too bad, considering it was an easy paper. Finally, after 3 periods of A-Math, Shi Yun and I had to leave to report to the Artroom and all. Then we shifted our instruments to the hall for practice and then we had breakfast in the canteen before changing into our bright pink and black costume.
We all tied gold ribbons on our hair and we were all given a bar of Mars Bar with an inspirational note stuck on it with our names too. Then we prac prac prac in the hall and then we had to rush down to load the instruments onto the truck, grabbed some take-away from the canteen and boarded the bus. We all ate lunch on the bus. Upon reaching SCH, we all unloaded our instruments and put them in one corner. There were many other schools there as well. The atmosphere was very exciting. Many seniors came, Jia Zhen, Joanne, Mei Yin, Michelle, Xiang Le, Jia Qing, Alda, Ke Chen and etc. Soon after we tuned our instruments, we were to move into the tuning room for a short 10 minutes practice. Then we were ushered out and moved onto the third level, where we entered straight into the concert hall, without any further ado and stepped onto the stage.
SYF for us had then begun. It was so fast. Xing Kong wasn't our very best, it was a bit screwed actually, but Chang Cheng was marvellous. The performance was over in the blink of an eye. It was so fast. Then we watched other orchestras perform. Finally, the last CO performed and everyone was settled down in the audience area. It took SOOO frigging long for the results to come out, the suspense was killing me. I almost lost my mind. Then after a LOOOOOONG wait, the emcee came out... announce announce announce... then "Chinese Orchestra number 15, Temasek Secondary School... GOLD!!!" I didn't care who saw me, I leapt up from my seat and screamed as I applauded loudly. Many others did the same, then I hugged Li Zhen and many many other people. I just was like "WE GOT GOLD!!!" then go hug almost everyone in sight. I was just so happy. Many people got so overwhelmed that they cried. I almost did too. For the first time, all the 4 aesthetics group in my school achieved Gold! I went nuts, literally. I just kept screaming and screaming and jumping and jumping and hugging and hugging. Oh man, I have so lost it. I was just too happy. All our MONTHS of hard work has paid off!! Thank you, God! Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 10:14 PM |
Monday, April 18, 2005
Two more days to the... BIG DAY! It's nerve-wrecking. Choir, Band and Dance have all achieved Gold, so must CO! We can do it people! We're gonna get a Gold! Jia you everyone! SYF's this wednesday!
Speaking of which, after SYF, we sec 4s are gonna step down. I'm seriously dreading that day. I don't wanna step down. I'm going to miss CO so much. I can't bear to leave my section. I've learnt to love them so much despite getting mad and irritated by them on quite a number of occasions. They were once a source of motivation in my times of trial. They've brought fun, joy and laughter into my life. Without CO, I would never have met so many wonderful, talented, and nice friends/juniors/seniors. I'll never forget you guys, love ya all!
And recently, especially after Musical Epoch II, I feel that CO has become much more bonded together. It's also because of the upcoming SYF that everyone has become so motivated to work hard and improve ourselves. We then spend more time together and establish bondship (man, so social studies: bilateral ties). Haha. I'm brainwashed.
By the way, last thursday, our class went to watch Boeing Boeing, a local play, at Victoria Theatre. It was a rather eventful day, so to speak, in my case at least. So after Protected Time, everyone rushed home to shower, change and all and dress nicely. I wore this light pink dress with spaghetti strap and white high-heels. I met Chuan Li, Song Wei and Si Hui at Tampines MRT station and we were joined by Shi Yun at Bedok MRT station. Then we headed over to City Hall to meet Tallie, Emily, Hengky and Marcus. We then walked along Citi Link towards Delifrance for our dinner. Along the way, I saw MPH (a bookstore), got excited and began running towards it. Yup, in high-heels. And it was so lovely that I just HAD to trip, fall down AND sprain my left ankle. I almost died. We hadn't even had dinner! It was utterly embarrassing I tell you. Dressed so elegantly, I was limping pitifully throughout the night. How unglam.
Dinner at Delifrance was fine. The Deli Potato was really filling, I couldn't even finish half of it. Si Hui, Shi Yun and Billy had to help me finish it. We were joined by Shermaine, Rusydiana, Billy, Wei Qiang, Zi Hao, Zhi Xin, Samuel, Sang Jin and so on. Then we had to walk over to Victoria Theatre and my classmates were really very nice. Walking at my pace, helping me and all. Thank you so much everyone! The play was really good. Hilarious, so to speak. The entire theatre was filled with laughter. Even Mr Tan laughed and smiled! For like the 5th time since last year? I can actually count. After the play, it was really late, about 10pm. Then we took pictures outside Fullerton, along Clarke Quay and Boat Quay. It was so fun! They actually wanted to have supper at Lau Pa Sat, but my classmates strictly forbid me to go because of my sprained ankle. In the end, no one went Lau Pa Sat, but a small group of people went Simpang Bedok to eat Roti Prata. The rest went home, but Chuan Li, Hengky and Song Wei escorted me back to Pasir Ris. Thanks guys.
I have forgotten him. Or actually, I just realised that it was only an infatuation, an obssession, well, of some sort. Haha. But then here comes another problem: the other one made me dong xing. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 9:07 PM |
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Aside from the Century Roxy Park Hotel incident when I was in primary 6, today is one of the freakiest day ever.
I was tired when I got home from school today, so I laid on the sofa and drifted off to sleep. After some time, I got woken up by something which hit my leg. I opened my eyes to see a bird less than half a metre away from me, standing the the edge of the sofa. I almost had a heart attack, but because I just woke up, I was a little disorientated. Then the bird pooped on the sofa. Yes, it POOPED on my sofa! Ugh. As you can see, it is abnormal for a bird to behave like this. Normally a bird would have flown away if any human gets too near it, but this particular bird actually hit my leg when it flapped its wings. Yeah, and woke me up from my nap. So my mum tried to catch and suceeded after some time. Then she brought it out into the garden.
After a few hours, my sister and I were on the computer, writing her literature poem. Then we saw the same bird again, it's back... now perched on top of the sofa. I seriously freaked. I was then overwhelmed by this really bad feeling, like I felt that perhaps the bird is trying to convey some message? Or perhaps something bad is going to happen? Like you know, a bad omen or a premonition of some sorts? I was so reminded of "I'm the King of the Castle", where Kingshaw was chased by a huge crow and how Hooper placed that stuffed crow on Kingshaw's bed in the middle of the night. But luckily, it's not a crow, I think it's a mynah. So my mum once again, caught it and brought it out. It kept resisting and shrieking, like it didn't want to leave the house. Once the bird was brought out of the house, we locked the grill and shut the glass door. And guess what? The bird... remained right outside the glass door... at that tiny space between the grill and the glass door. Now it's perched on the grill... looking into the house. It hasn't budged. It's just staring... and staring...
I'm never gonna be able to sleep tonight! Please let this horrible feeling abate. Frankly, I was so freaked out I almost cried. Okay, I gotta stop thinking about it... about that bird... that's still perched on the grill, yes, even now as I'm writing this... it's still there... staring... and just staring... Okay, stop, happy thoughts, happy thoughts...
Let's see, there was this self-practice today in the Artroom. My rubber band kept getting pulled off by the guys as usual. Next time, I'm seriously gonna bring back-up. Theophilus could play "Music of the Night" and "Think of Me" on the cello and it was really really beautiful. We played Chang Cheng and Xing Kong today. Then Xin Yi, Li Zhen, Pei Zhi, Theophilus and I left at about 5pm. It was raining heavy, I got partially drenched. But I should thank Pei Zhi and Theo for sharing their umbrella. =) Then I went to Pasir Ris to get my Biology textbook back from Joanne. After that, I spent some time at the library and Mac with my juniors. So fun. Heh, had a great time.
Oh yeah, people should really not spread rumours that aren't true. It does no one any good. It was blown WAY out of proportion today. Please, watch your mouth. (This doesn't refer to any of my juniors)
//I'm getting xing dong by you. I'm confused about my own feelings.// Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:55 PM |
Monday, April 11, 2005
- It really hurts to let go of someone you love, but what hurts even more is when the person you love, lets you go so easily.
- Dont cry because it's over, Smile because it happened.
- If you love someone as much as you say you do, then go for it and don't let anyone stop you cause if you do, you will never get the chance that you had.
- Never forget yesterday... but always live for today...cuz you never know what tomorrow can bring...or what it can take away...
- ~*~When someone is trying to tell you something that they know will hurt you, you've got to understand that it will hurt them as much as when you hear it.~*~
- If I had a dime for every time i thought and dreamed of you Then i'd be the richest girl in the world But that wouldn't matter at all to me Cause even with all that money I'd still be lonely just thinking of you
- *You can always close your eyes to the things you don't want to see but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel*
- *Don't ever give up if you still want to try. Don't wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't stop asking questions if you still want to know. Don't say you don't love him if you can't let him go*
Okay, I was just randomly picking out some quotes from a website. Today would have been a totally happy day. But violin lessons ruined it. I shan't go into details. It made me really depressed and for the first time, tears welled up in my eyes, but again, was gone in a minute.
CO was great today. Mushroom seemed to have gone kinda nuts. Then again, so have everyone else. Talked and laughed a lot today. The hi-hat seemed to have become known as my umbrella. Heh. Tai Feng was pretty good today and the cello section's body language was just beautiful man.
We had PE this morning and we ran 2.4km for the NAPFA test. For the first time, I clocked a timing of 13.47 minutes. It's an A!!! I was overwhelmed with a sense of euphoria. POL (haha, bai jie, talz, u know what I mean). I ran/jogged non-stop. But yeah, I'm paying the price now. My body hurts. Ouch. Then I went sorta nuts cheering for all the rest who were running. Then I got really thirsty and drank so much water that I felt like puking. How silly.
Choir got Gold. Band got Gold with Honours. CO, we're gonna do it! We're gonna give it our best shot! Only 9 more days! Let's all work hard and motivate each other! Remember, pitching, body langauge and pulse! Which reminds me of how I was going all "move leh" and a certain someone suddenly moved like a blob of jelly which got poked at. I almost died laughing. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:12 PM |
Sunday, April 10, 2005
The result of three consecutive days of long hours of CO practices (and there's still practices tomorrow and on tuesday): a blister on my thumb and index finger. Ouch. It hurts leh. Maybe I ought to scotch-tape that hard plastic part of my bow, then it wouldn't cut into my fingers. Nevertheless, CO practices has returned back to the fun old days. Today's practice (yes, we had a practice today, a SUNDAY!) was fun! It felt pretty weird to go to school on a sunday, but the practice was enjoyable. Laughed a lot.
Conductor was late today, I think there was something wrong with his car. Then before that we were just practising randomly. But it was funny how we ended up playing Chang Cheng together. It started off with the flutes. Then erhu joined in. I heard and joined in, Wen Da and Lynn too. Then Theophilus heard and the cellos joined in. In the end, everyone played together. It was so cool! After that, Theophilus conducted Chang Cheng and Xing Kong once through. Then we went back to practising randomly until our conductor arrived.
But as a result, I had so much homework undone. Imagine on Friday, I had practice until 6pm. Saturday from 9am - 5pm. By the time I got back, I was so dead-tired. Then today got practice again. AND practices tomorrow, and on tuesday, and on friday, and on saturday and on sunday and on monday and on tuesday and finally... THE BIG DAY...
Yeah, we're gonna do our best and get that Gold!!! There's only a couple of days left, let's perservere on! Jia you~! Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 6:05 PM |
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Riiight, so tell me, what on earth am I doing blogging at this unearthly hour when I have school the next day? Well, actually, today, technically speaking, it's morning at 10 minutes to 2am.
Okay, so I'm depressed and confused and I don't feel like sleeping. Sigh, I just finished writing my english summary and I'm reading and talking to Joanne. It's been quite a while since I've read a nice good story. Though the current one is one of the most bizzare fanfics I've ever read, it's no doubt humourous. Yeap, funny enough to make me laugh out loud in front of the computer. Anyone who saw me, would have thought me insane. Actually, it's a pretty nutty sight. A girl sitting alone in front of the com in the living room in the wee hours of the morning, laughing to herself. Riiight.
I felt so demoralised during the Speech Day Rehersal today. I was so embarrassed. I played so out of pitch. No doubt that Wen Da and Theophilus could hear it clearly. Okay, so I should have re-tuned my gaohu after someone knocked it over. But oh well, there wasn't enough time, we were already on the stage and the curtains were gonna open. I'd better do something about my horrible pitching. *depressed*
Of course, that's not the only or main cause of my depression. It's a cumulative thing you know. It just keeps piling up and you get squished under the weight, stress and pressure of it. Okay, what am I talking about? Oh no, I'm rambling incessantly. Right, so it's about my sucky pitching, my sucky grades and those bombshells that my friends recently dropped on me, of which the contents, I shall prefer not to reveal. Don't ask, as the saying goes "Ignorance is bliss".
Now that, was very random. Actually, I have no idea what I'm talking about. Right, I ought to return back to my fanfic. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 1:43 AM |
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
I need to forget. I must forget. It's haunting me. It's wrecking havoc on my mind. It's not leaving me alone! I don't ever wanna go through that same pain again, it hurts too much. I'm gonna forget... I have to. There's no other saner option.
CO has fallen back into its old monotone routine. Something that used to bring me so much joy has now left me more depressed than ever. Everytime I find myself looking forward to CO practices, but after it ends, I'm left feeling worse than ever. Totally down in the dumps. I felt like crying in the car today. But nevermind, no tears.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. I failed my Chemistry test again. Nothing seems to be going right. Everything is falling apart. Even my sanity. I know you don't know it, but I'm hurt by your words and actions. You don't have to know, I'll suffer in silence.
I'll be alright. Everything's gonna be just fine. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 7:23 PM |
Monday, April 04, 2005
Another bout of monday blues. With the addition of this freaking sorethroat that attacked me from out of the blue just a few hours ago. I just had my NAPFA test this morning during PE. It was a total disappointment I tell you. We did 5 stations today and I scored As for everything and that perfect score is only to be marred by a B and a D. I wished I could redo.
Anyway, enough about that. I crashed into a canteen bench in school today. How embarrassing. Talk about accident-prone. Hah. I think everyone is over-stressed. Karen was hallucinating in class today I think and we couldn't stop laughing. Things kept dropping off our tiny lecture 'desks'. Sometimes my imagination just runs wild in classes and I just burst out laughing abruptly. Yeah, and people start staring at me. Riiight... You must be thinking I'm nuts.
//I can't say that I'm not hurt by your words, because I am. // Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 10:55 PM |
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