Stress. Which causes your adrenal glands to secret adrenaline and thus increase your rate of heartbeat, metabolic rate, dilates your pupils to enhance vision and blah blah blah. Okay, I just had my Biology test on the nervous system, the eye and the endocrine system. So pardon me.
I am so stressed out. Today I got my O' levels Registration booklet and verification slip. The dates and time of the examinations are out. And the exam fees are so freaking expensive. On some days, there are two papers squished together. Tough papers nonetheless. And the time of some examintions are just ungodly. Like Chemistry paper 2 at 4pm in the afternoon?!
Can I just go and die? No, of course not. Great, I'm talking to myself. Ahaha. Very nice (sarcastic tone). Right, so I shan't be wasting anymore time ranting and raving on about stress and how it affects and body and about the O levels examinations. There's a cross-country tomorrow. And I need to go like finish up my Chinese Essay. Oh and can you believe this? I actually have LESSONS after CROSS-COUNTRY!?!?!?! Like nuts or wat? Who on earth can study and write an essay properly after running like mad? Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 6:03 PM |
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
I sat nervously in my seat, fidgeting around as I heard the A-Math teacher called out student one by one to receive back their Circular Measure test paper. Finally, I heard my name after straining my ears for a few nerve-wreaking minutes. I walked up to the teacher, feeling apprehensive. I had studied for the test. I had all the formulas at my fingertips. I had practised a lot and I knew how to solve them. I took the paper from my teacher and walked back to my seat, not daring to look at my marks. Finally, I lifted the corner of the paper and saw in big red ink, 9/20.
It is just these kind of happenings that totally ruins your day. Having known that you studied so hard for a paper, expecting you would do pretty well or at the very least pass it, but no, you fail. But okay, I admit, it's my fault, I made a careless mistake and calculated sin90 degrees in radian mode, which totally caused me 11 marks. Or else, I could have scored full marks.
Same goes for my Chemistry test. I studied an entire afternoon and even did all the Section B of the TYS for both chapters being tested. And yet, I failed. My English is deteoriorating (see, I'm not even sure if I spelled this correctly). I'm making mistakes that I would never have made so commonly in the past. I'm commiting very simple mistakes that shouldn't even appear in my work at all; mistakes as simple as writing the wrong singular or plural form of word. The number of mistakes I made for a few simple vocabularly exercises Mr Tan gave us totally stunned me.
I don't know why my results are plummeting like this. It's not as if I didn't study. I did! Haiz, I should just work even harder.
Today the Sec 1s started sectionals. And the seniors? We slack! Coz Zheng Lao Shi was with the sec 1s in another classroom. But I wasn't slacking lah, I did practice Xin Kong and Chang Cheng and some other random songs, even the scales. Then I finished up my Biology worksheet and read through the chapter on the Eye. Wen Da was practising. Yeah, he's always practising, though not the SYF songs all the time. So was Pei Zhi and Jotham. Those three were sitting together. Lynn was looking through the pictures in Jelly's cellphone. Suddenly she blurted out loudly "Valerie, you look FAT!!!" I halted my movements and was like 'DiAoX', as laughter, sniggers and giggles erupted all over the classroom. Man, that Lynn arz. Fine, so I looked fat in that particular photo. Somebody slap me if you see me eat any chocolates or ice-cream. At least, I don't look fat in real life. I don't, do I?
Ah well, nevermind. Better get on with my Literature homework before random thoughts start zooming into my head and I drift away again. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 9:32 PM |
Sunday, February 20, 2005
I.Have.Gone.Nuts. Yes! I have lost my sanity! This is one of the most productive weekend ever. On Friday, after I got home from CO at about 6.45pm, I took a short nap and then had dinner. Then I proceeded to revise Biology, the Nervous System. After that I studied my Social Studies guidebook then went to sleep at about 12 midnight.
On Saturday, I had CO from 8.30am in the morning till 1pm in the afternoon. Then I had Bible Study and lunch with Susan until about 3pm before I went home. Again, I took a nap, coz I was so exhausted. Then I woke up, had dinner then proceeded to scour the stacks of newspapers for my social studies articles assignment. Then I went to type out my summary, reflections and relevance to NE in the com before I print out to re-copy onto my book. Troublesome I know, but its easier. Well, at least for me. So I did the SS articles until about 2.30am in the morning. Yeah, with breaks in between coz I was sms-ing my friends and got a bit distracted. Amazingly, I wasn't feeling sleepy. So I whipped out my A-Math TYS, foolscap paper, calculator and did my tuition homework, until 3am in the morning. Then... I went to sleep. Ahaha.
Today, I woke up at 8am. My dad just came back from places all over the world. Yeah, I forgot which countries he went to, lost count. Whee, and he bought a lovely necklace. Then I went to shower to freshen myself up and at 9am, I had tuition. For 4 hours. Yes, FOUR-HOURS tuition. I am so shocked that I actually survived through that without feeling sleepy! I did Sets, Differentiation and Rates of Change. Tuition ended at 1pm, and I continued with my social studies articles, writing the summary, reflections and all into my book, until 2.30pm. Now, here I am, rambling away. I can't believe I actually sat at my desk and studied for 5 and a half hours consecutively today.
Despite what I've done. I still gotta revise my Social Studies because there's a test tomorrow. And I've got two SS structured essays to edit and re-write. And I've gotta finish up that Chinese essay. AND... I gotta do an early revision for my Biology test, because there're three huge chapters being tested. Tell me why do people comtemplate suicide sometimes?
Just kidding, the thought never crossed my mind. Haha. Like I said, I'm nuts, so pardon me. Alright, I'd better go and practice my violin. It totally slipped my mind yesterday until 11pm, which my mum forbid me to practice coz it would disturb our neighbours. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 2:30 PM |
Sunday, February 13, 2005
I've just been to two of the most incredible houses today. My dad's secondary school teacher's house and a captain pilot's house. We went to my dad's sec sch teacher's house first.
Firstly, it's not just a house, it's not even fit to be called a bungalow... it's a... mansion. Yeah, you know the terrace house I live in? Put 10 of those together and you get the picture. There's even a really big rectangular swimming pool. Plus a library, complete with floor to ceilings shelves, sofas and a carpet on the ground. Of course, there're roman pillars in the house. Even the toilet door handle is crystal-like. Then we had lunch by the pool. Dining table draped in white cloth, real posh and all. And there's a spiral staircase leading to the second storey and a balcony overlooking the pool and entrance of the house.
Now, about the second house, a captain pilot's house. The minute you step in, you feel like you're in a ballroom at a hotel. The marble flooring has a couple of beautiful classy carpets. Yes, the house has roman pillars as well, and victorian chairs. The whole place is air-conditioned and has soft orange lighting. It's just beautiful I tell you. It even has a mini bar and the table in front of it is draped in a dark green cloth and there's a variety of food layed out. All the while, there's soft classical music played in the background and many people are drinking wine and all. It's really classy and lovely. Then we lao yu sheng and ate and drank, with my dad's other pilot friends. And the toilet, my goodness, looks like the toilets in hotels. Shining walls, marble I think, and very beautifully decorated.
Ah, I'd better stop rambling about those houses. I just got home and I am one dead girl. I feel SO tired and I have yet to do my English Summary and wrap up the Valentine's Day gifts for my friends. Alright, I'd better go. Cya. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 11:01 PM |
Saturday, February 12, 2005
I finally changed my blog skin, which didn't take me too long either, thankfully. I've got tuition later... (grumbles) which means either Permutations and Combinations or Differentiation. Neither of which I'm looking forward to. Sigh.
Xin Kong is a really nice song, but we don't play it really nicely. I mean the slower and more emotional the song is, the harder it is, because you really have to go into it, play with all your heart and feel the music. CO was the usual today, with the exception of getting jabbed by my junior's (Lynn) bow so many times I lost count.
Gee, I haven't been practising my violin, better go brush up on my scales, arpeggios and exam pieces. Y o u r N a m e _ b l o g g e d _ @ 4:03 PM |
Thursday, February 10, 2005
I'm gonna be sick if I eat anymore New Year goodies. School's re-opening tomorrow. Sigh. But Valentine's Day is coming! I'm waiting to hear Shi Yun's Morning Digest speech. Heh. Sadly, on Valentine's Day I have a date, with my textbooks, worksheets and assignments. How lovely.
Hey, to all 6K 2001, a 6K Gathering after the O' levels anyone? Well, of course, if anyone's gonna organise one... *cough*Mark*cough*. We invite Mr. Ang this time ya?
Chinese New Year has never been so unhappy, but I shan't go into details about it. Even the CO's performance sounded so dead. There was no life nor atmosphere and I made mistakes.
I just finished reading a book, The Silver Coin. The genre is one of my favourite blend: thriller (murder) and romance. It's a really good book, but it affected me emotionally a lot. Like how Talz felt when she read Eternal Love. I like the author's writing style. The way she writes how the assassin moves in to make his kill, how he threatens his victims and outsmart them. Hey, I'm not a sadist ya, I just like her writing style, not the assassin and how he kills. Too bad Royce Chadwick is just a fictional character. Sigh.
I realise I'm getting dependent on my books to cheer me up. Whenever I'm sad, I read. I'm mad, I read. Even when I'm feeling neutral, books make me laugh. Once, I was reading a novel during full orchestra practice, then I began laughing coz of some funny events in the book. But since it's practice, I tried to quell it and and my body ended up shaking in silent laughter. My junior, Wen Da stared at me like I've gone nuts or something.
The teachers have not spared us. I got homework and assignments during the Chinese New Year. Talk about stress.
3 hours of A-Math tuition doing Differentiation has killed my brain cells. I just found out that... I calculated sin90 DEGREES in RADIAN mode!!! (kills myself) And because of that stupid blunder, I failed my A-Math test! Yes! Failed! By one frigging mark!!! Haiz.
I'm going up for Morning Digest tomorrow. Sigh, wish me luck. I'm may not be nervous now, but the moment when Mdm Audra says "Morning Digest please", I know my heart will slam into my throat, my heart beat will accelerate like mad and I will walk up there on shaky legs. Ah well, there's Chemistry test tomorrow too. Sian.
BUT... there's violin lessons tomorrow! And... I went to Mingxi's place yesterday and tried out a couple of violins. The one I really really like is...8.5K, totally out of the question. Besides it's a full size. I still have some trouble with full size though I can play it, so Mingxi gave me a 7/8 violin. The wood is nice! Varnished too and I just absolutely love the case!!! Though it's heavy. The sound is not too bad either. Just need to wait for Eric's (my violin teacher) verdict tomorrow.
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