Last night I slept really late, coz I wanted to finish the Book of Daniel. So the minute I finished the last sentence, I plopped down on my bed and fell asleep the moment my head touched the pillow. But actually I had this urge to read Psalms but my eyes were hurting too much coz I was really drained out. When I woke up this morning, I still had that urge to read Psalms. So after I brushed my teeth, changed into my uniform and so on, I still had some time left, so I went to read Psalms. So I was just reading reading reading... suddenly, a phrase stopped me short. It like jumped out at me.
"In your anger do not sin; when you are in your beds, search your hearts and be silent." - Psalms 4:4
In a way, I felt that it was God's message to me regarding an argument I had with _____ last night. I knew I really shouldn't have lashed out at _____ that way. I shouldn't have spoken such harsh words... I really gotta get a hold on my temper. Thank God for pointing it out to me.
Anyway, something really hilarious happened during Physics lessons today again. It seems that all funny things happens durning Physics lessons. Today, Mr Mubarak was talking about pressure and he was telling us about an ice skater's skates, and how it melts the ice then it refreezes over again when the skates are no longer applying pressure on it. So he was demonstrating it with his hands, which were raised high in the air. Suddenly, Jun Kai knocked at the door, interrupted him and asked him some questions, probably regarding Scouts. So Mr Mubarak answered his questions, but he didn't lower his hands. So he was just talking to Jun Kai with both hands raised high up in the air. I turned and whispered to Shi Yun. "How come Mr Mubarak froze in that position?". Just then Chuan Li saw it too, and he stood up and imitated Mr Mubarak's position. The class roared with laughter. I almost died laughing again.
Also, Mr Mubarak was talking about how pressure can change the boiling and melting points of water. So we were then talking about boiling point. Then Chuan Li said "Huh? You boil an ocean ah?". Again, the class burst out laughing. Then Hengky said to us (people sitting near him) "What do you get when you boil an ocean?" We shook our heads and shrugged. The answer is "steamed fish". My goodness... I think I'm laughing too much nowadays. But then again, I think I'm crying too much nowadays too, for a certain reason which I do not wish to disclose. In due time, I think I will just shrivel and dry up like a prune. Oh man...
Oh, by the way, today is Mid-Autumn Festival. Sadly, I'm stuck at home studying. Although I did eat a mooncake yesterday and it was strawberry flavoured. Yummy. I wish I could go Chinese Garden tonight. I'm sure there'll be lanterns everywhere. It reminds me of my childhood days, where I would light up hundred over candles and light them around the place. It's really pretty. Then we would hang up lanterns too! I miss those days...
Oh, did I just hear the ice-cream man go by? Nvm, no more thoughts of ice-cream and junk food before I get all sorts of funny illnesses and diseases which I shouldn't be getting. Anyway, the exams are SO near. It's less than a week away! I feel so worried and unprepared. I'm really afraid that I will fail some subjects. But then again, I know it wouldn't matter to God whether I'd obtained an A1 or a F9. So why am I still feeling like this? I should just do my very best and leave the rest to God.
Today is Shi Yun's birthday. During recess, Ya Qin, Li Zhen and Michelle came to our class with the birthday cake which Ya Qin and I ordered on Saturday and collected yesterday. Then we walked into the class with the cake and put it onto Shi Yun's desk. Shi Yun was staring wide-eyed and opened-mouth at us in shock. Haha. Then dunno Si Hui or Karen said "Don't cry hor...". Then we sang a birthday song, took pictures, gave Shi Yun her presents and of course, ate the cake!
Mrs Tay returned us the Chemistry Test today. I thought I wouldn't do so badly since I really studied my brains out for the test. To my utmost dismay, my results were utterly disappointing. Not at all what I had expected. I really don't know what's wrong with my nowadays. My test results are so disappointing, and it's not just Chemistry alone. And it's not as if I studied and studied, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week... I do take breaks in between! So I'm not like exhausting myself out. Sighz...
I just read _____ blog. I feel as if a knife has been stabbed into my heart repeatedly and the gaping wound left bleeding. I guess it's probably all my fault. I'm too selfish, too mad to notice anything. Humans, we are all sinners and no one is perfect. But still, it doesn't mean that we can just continue to sin. We must overcome the temptation to sin and Jesus has shown us how, somewhere in Matthew... Yeap...
Today I went to shop for Shi Yun's birthday present at Tampines Mall with Ya Qin and bumped into Zhi Qian, Daniel, Jen and Weicong there. Zhi Qian then came along with Ya Qin and I to buy Shi Yun's presents. The others left him. Poor guy. Anyway, we walked the whole TM... then went over to Century Square before finally deciding on what to buy. Oh, I also bought the Violin Grade 5 Exam Pieces. That thin book actually cost me $25.20!
After that, I went to Tampines Library to meet Marliyana to study Chemistry together. So yeap, we were just studying and studying. Halfway, we went out to get some ice-cream and a bottle of drink, before returning to the library to study again. The library and school are probably the only places where I can actually study fully concentrated. It's been nice studying with Marl. Haha, we were like discussing Chemistry questions.
Oh by the way, my dad took those cigarette packets away, so he probably saw those signs. Ahahaz, but he didn't say anything about it. Probably don't give a damn. It's time for Plan B.
Today I went TM with Tallie and Emily to look at music exam pieces. Violin Grade 5 for me, and Piano Grade 5 for Emily. It looks hard... But I really don't wish to waste so much time since I started late, so I guess from now till next year July, I'm gonna practice really hard. Oh yeah, I found the piano score for All I Ask of You - The Phantom of the Opera! Oh man, it's really really nice, but it's really really hard. 5 flats!
Anyway, I just did something really hilarious. I was having lunch at home, when I caught sight of two packets of cigarettes. My dad's obviously. So I got kind of pissed, coz he's not quiting smoking. Then I got a piece of paper, a pen and scotch-tape. I wrote "Quit Smoking" and stuck it onto both packets of cigarettes. I scotch-taped it in such a way that it would be difficult to open the packet of cigarette unless he removed all the scotch-tape. Haha, then I placed them face-down and continued eating my lunch.
Something hilarious happened in Physics lessons today. I was feeling very sleepy but was trying my best to stay awake. I guess I'm not alone, Mr Mubarak suddenly called out "Zi Hao". I looked at Zi Hao, and he was asleep and rotating 360 degrees in his chair. The whole class burst out laughing. He didn't even wake up when Mr Mubarak called his name. Then Siti kicked his chair. He finally woke up. Mr Mubarak said "Wah, merry-go-round." I almost couldn't stop laughing. I had to bite my lips.
Today I borrowed Florence's Titanic scores and tried it out on my piano. It's the nicest version of "My Heart Will Go On" I've ever heard yet. But... It's so hard. 4 sharps then 4 flats. And I just found out that there's something wrong with the G# key on my piano. Argh, irritating.
I just love fruit tarts! As a matter of fact, almost any kind of tarts; fruit tarts, peach tarts, blueberry tarts, strawberry tarts, etc. Haha, alright, enough about tarts.
I've got THREE tests tomorrow! Can you believe it... Goodness... Chinese Test, Chemistry Test AND Biology Test! Now, I'm trying to cram all the information on our body's Excretory System in my head. Then gotta start studying Preparation of Salts and Stoichiometry. Bleargh... Finally, start revising chinese... 5 chapters!!! Arghhh... (A moment of anguish) Okay, chill, haha. Anyway, I gotta go eat my dinner now. Cyaz~
I am so drenched in that rain. Totally soaked from head to toe. Even my books in my bag are wet! Goodness... But hey, it's been quite sometime since I got drenched like that. It's cool! Haha, dots. Anyway, there's only about 12 more days till the Final Year Examinations begin. I'm freaking out. Sometimes, 24 hours a day just isn't enough.
I'm getting high blood pressure just talking to _____. It's not that I don't wanna talk to _____ or anything, but _____ is just so stubborn and whatever that I'm trying to explain just doesn't get into _____ head. Wah... cool down man... Breathe in... Breathe out...
Sigh, I gotta revise Literature and Physics later. But then again, I have to finish reading that stupid book which will be tested on Thursday. Oh man... How on earth am I gonna finish it?!?! Maybe I shouldn't revise Physics today and finish reading that book. Anyway, I better go now, before I really rapture a blood vessel or something. Sheesh.
Five minutes after I stepped out of the examination hall today, I knew I had totally screwed it up. I misinterpreted the ying yong wen question and wrote a whole load of totally irrelevant crap, I bet the teacher marking would be laughing his/her head off after reading my ying yong wen. I knew I was gonna fail, and I tried to make light of it, but still the depressing truth of it hit me hard.
I had lunch with Karen and Si Hui today then I went off to Tampines Library alone to study for my Chemistry test. To my dismay, there were no seats available and I was still feeling low about my screw-up of the Chinese Paper 1. Then I decided not to study and give myself a break, I'm gonna read and read and read the whole day. After borrowing a thick novel, I left the library then my cellphone rang. It was Daniel. We talked for a while before I decided I had to put down the phone before my dad hits the roof when he sees my cellphone bill. When I got home, I called him back.
So we started talking about my stupid blunder on my Chinese Paper 1 and the more I thought about it, the more depressed I felt. Crying sure takes a lot out of you. After crying for about half an hour, my eyes were like red and swollen, I hung up the phone and fell asleep for an hour.
During the exam, while I had arrived at an interpretation of a phrase I wasn't sure of, I didn't know if I should write it. It would be a gamble, a huge risk taken. Then, I felt this really weird feeling to trust that interpretation and to go ahead and write it. There's no explanation for it and I wondered, "Could it have been God?". Before I picked up my pen to write it, I prayed silently for a short while. If it is God and the interpretation is right, I thank Him for helping me. If it is God, and the interpretation is wrong, I still thank Him, for I believe He has a reason for doing this. I knew I shouldn't be so affected by it then, but I still couldn't help feeling upset. But I'm feeling better now, I'm over it. Thank God.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
- Matthew 11:16-19
Oh man... Tomorrow... is... DOOM'S DAY~!!! Okay, just kidding. Tomorrow is our first paper for the Final-Year Exam!!! English and Chinese Paper 1. Sigh, all the format thingys to study. I'm feeling so lazy and slacky nowadays. -_- Can u believe it? The school sqaushed 6 exam papers in just THREE days~! Whatever it is, I just wish the exams to be over as soon as possible... then I can... RELAX! Yeah, I've already decided, the first thing I'm gonna do after my last paper is to go to a concert. Then I'm gonna go ice-skating! Of course, practise much harder on my violin. Okay, why am I thinking of all these when the exams haven't even begun...
By the way, I recently read a book which totally swept me off my feet.
A Walk to Remember - Nicholas Sparks.
It's extremely touching, sad and sweet. I kept reading it over and over again. It's definately one of the best books I've ever read. It really touches the heart. And one part which really caught my attention was...
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful and conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.
It really... well, how do I describe it? Ok, I can't put it in words. It is actually from the Bible, 1 Corinthians. The entire story unfolds so beautifully. I watched the movie as well and although it wasn't as good as the book, it almost made me cry. The songs are very nice too, especially "Cry" and "Only Hope" by Mandy Moore. Alright, I gotta go get started on my revision for tomorrow's papers. Cyaz~!
I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it to ther earnestness of others.
- A Walk to Remember
- The Bible
The funniest thing happened today. We were having CO practice in the artroom and we were gonna play Chang Cheng Sui Xiang (The Great Wall Capricco). Everyone was ready, looking at the conductor, whose hands were already raised. Suddenly, the door opened... and a school caretaker's head poked in. Everyone's heads turned, including the conductor's. And the sch caretaker asked us what time would CO end? We told her 4pm and then she went out. A few seconds later, when we were gonna start on Chang Cheng again, we suddenly heard the sound of a key being inserted into the keyhole of the artroom door. Then the key was turned and turned and the lock clicked on. SHE LOCKED US IN!!! We stared at each other and at the door in bewilderment. Everyone had this really incredulous look and some were laughing. Really. This is hilarious! My sec 2 junior, Lynn, turned to me and muttered something about her being crazy. My sec 1 junior, Wen Da, asked me what happened. To confirm so, Yi Wei, a fellow section mate sitting just beside the door, got up and turned the door handle. It was indeed locked. She rattled the door some more and it didn't budge. Luckily Xue Fang, our CO president, had the key, so we finally got started on Chang Cheng.
Ahhhhh... I got my Progress Report back today. And Ahhhhh... I failed Physics and A-Math. Okay, enough screamings. I thought I would fail E-Math and Chemistry as well. Thank goodness I did not. But I just so feel like killing myself. I got 49 for A-math. JUST ONE MORE MARK!!! *bangs head on the wall* Ouch. Okay, but I got A1 for Biology, Literature, Chinese and Social Studies. An A2 for English. The other subjects are either Bs or Cs. Right, now enough abt the Progess Report.
I received my End-Year Examination Schedule, and I so can't believe this. Who on Earth would put Chinese and Biology exam on the same day?! And Literature and A-Math on the same day?! This is the craziest time-table I've ever seen. Anyway, I gotta buck up and really start studying le. Yupz.
Okay, so next week is Term Break. But it doesn't make much difference to me other than we won't see our teachers and on some days, I get to wake up late. The week will probably be filled with CO practices anyway, considering that concert in November. Sigh... and of course, the one thing that teachers NEVER fail to do before a holiday (even if it's only a week)... Holiday Homework! And I don't mean just a few pages of worksheets, they literally bury us in homework.
Tml I'm gonna get back my Progress Report. I don't know how I'm gonna survive through CO sectionals after seeing my Progress Report. Geez... And I'm still wondering whether to take my violin exam next year or to postpone it. After all, I'm taking my O' levels next year and the exam is around July. Bad time.
Hi, I'm back! I'm not dead yet, just haven't had the time to update this blog. A quick run through of recent events...
Loads and Loads of tests
Many 8 hours long CO practices
National Day Celebration
Assembly CO Performance
Attended Festival Winds
Angel and Mortal Game
Moonlight Rhapsody Concert
Acted in Teachers' Day Concert
Anything else I missed out? Those tests reminded me that I'm gonna get back my Progress Report for the Term - something I'm not exactly looking forward to. Those super long hours of CO practices are really taking up a lot of my time. National Day Celebration - mayhem and chaos in the hall, especially when people started running around the perimeter. The Assembly Performance was the sec 1s first stage performance and just great, I had to be the MC. Anyway, it was QUITE..... oookay, I guess. Festival Winds was good. Moonlight Rhapsody was kinda terrible. Really, I played some wrong notes, my pitching was out at some point, not to mention, I was seated right in front. The Teachers' Day Concert, 3/1 and 3/3 combined to produce this play which is something like the twisted version of Sleeping Beauty.
Everything is about the same until the evil fairy godfather (yes, fairy godfather) cursed Sleeping Beauty to sleep for a hundred years. Then the good fairy godmother (that's me!) stepped in to try to lift that curse. (Earth crumbles and wind blows... Fire burns and water flows... Let the magic move and flow... To lift this cur*cough cough*) Right, and the spell was disrupted and Sleeping Beauty got sent back in time, where she met the disco prince. She had to dance to go back into her own time and then everyone was just dancing to "Grease Lightning"! The End.
There're so much concerts this year! Assembly Performance and Moonlight Rhapsody is over. Phew. Now there's is dunno what East.... dunno wat concert in November, where we had to play this one song - Chang Cheng Sui Xiang (The Great Wall Capricco). Sigh, gotta practise really hard. Also, there's another violin concert, which I have yet to choose my performance piece. And of course, the major CO concert in January next year. And then SYF Competition. Sometimes, 24 hours a day really isn't enough time.
Our class started this game called "Angel and Mortal". Write everyone's names and put it in a box. Pick out a name, and that person is your mortal, whom you would have to be very good to. After a certain period of time, the angel would reveal himself/herself. I've got one of the best angel in the world, and that's probably why I enjoyed this game a lot.
Alright, I better go now, I've got a Biology Test tml. Bye~
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